I Don’t Need Adult Conversation By Vika Evdokimenko

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In her surrealist, hybrid documentary I Don’t Need Adult Conversation, writer-director Vika Evdokimenko turns the camera on her own early months of motherhood, merging intimate, everyday footage with mythic and folkloric imagery. Inspired by Maya Deren and Agnès Varda, Evdokimenko appears on screen with her ten-month-old son, layering these tender moments with jarring, dreamlike sequences to explore what remains one of culture’s last taboos – the shadow side of motherhood. By harnessing archetypal maternal imagery alongside fragments from her diaries and dream journals, Evdokimenko dismantles the pristine, selfless narrative of “the good mother” to reveal a far more complex emotional spectrum. Following a festival run, the film’s online release prompted an outpouring from mothers worldwide – a testament to its timely and deeply relatable portrait of postnatal depression, burnout, and the unspoken truths that so often remain hidden.

Vika Evdokimenko: “Harnessing the archetypal imagery of motherhood that proliferates our culture, this surrealist essay film explores the staggering counterpoint between the light and shadow sides of my experience of becoming a mother. The Good Mother is one of the oldest mythic figures of all. She offers protection and solace from the harshness of the world and provides not only emotional support, but also spiritual and physical sustenance. Conversely for centuries the Dark Mother has been one of our culture’s most untouched taboos. But recently women have started speaking out about the duality of their experience. We are now weaving an entirely new tapestry of the unspoken, previously unspeakable but painfully familiar aspects of our mothering journeys. ‘I Don’t Need Adult Conversation’ explores the absurd contrast between the pristine, selfless narrative of motherhood we are comfortable with and the reality of a much more complex, imperfect and tainted spectrum of emotions.”